You are the only exception..

Jay

I am getting used to this thing called running. =)
And here is what I got today for joining.

gotta learn the hard way

Why does it have to be the hard way is the best way to learn?
Who told anyone that this person wants to learn the hard way?
I know how to understand, I am not pickle minded not to understand this.
Sometimes I wonder, is this it? is this what I have been waiting my whole life?
Now what? For sometime...did I ever learn from the past?
Why is it that I feel like I am back on the beginning?
I don't know... I really don't...

Love the way you lie...

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts..


Love The Way You Lie lyrics

How hard is it??

I do not really know why is it so hard for you to just tell me everything instead of waiting for me to ask you..
I do not think that it is a cultural difference that someone from there can hide things like this to the person you love..
I believe that trust is any culture's most important value when it comes to love.
I am not upset because you lied to me, it is because I will have hard time trusting you again...

Finally...

Never the less...I finally found someone.
May there be distance between us, I still believe love conquers all.

Life goes on..

Every time we get hurt, every time we had heartaches and tears. Let us always put in our mind that life continuous within us, even without us. So here I am, already have chosen what my life is going to be.
God gave me this life to live. God gave me this heart to love and He gave me his undying love so that I may live.

Making this dream a reality

I have had this dream for a very long time, even before my life got complicated. Unfortunately, I had to give it up before because I thought there is a much better life than my dream and that is who I was with. Fortunately, my dream is now becoming a reality. And I am so excited.

I honestly don't want to exceed 50 years of my life. I don't want to be anyone's burden. I just want to fulfill my dreams and go on with my life on how God will want me to live.

As for now, I am so happy with everything that is happening. I hope my friends will help me pray that I conquer my dreams and make them all come true.

Just like everyone, I just want to be happy before my life ends.

Just going with the tide

Here I am all this time, wanting to always feel that I am needed. By someone, by everyone. why? I don't really know, is it because I can see myself capable of helping, of lending a hand most of the time? or is it really me who is in need of someone.
Could it be because I was always with someone that i feel doing something for others actually fills up the emptiness within me? Am I really empty or is that because I am thinking that I am empty?
Maybe time will come and I will be able to answer all these questions in my head. But until then, I will just go along the water, wherever the wind takes me. I will just go with the flow.
You be my Strength, Lord.

my new baby

I know it will be for a while before we will finally be together. We will share laughter and tears, heartaches and heartbreaks, through thick and thin, may you be blurred or crystal clear.. someday baby..someday.

Happy, Happy, Happy

I finally was able to breathe, able to see what life has in store for me. I am so alive and was able to smile and laugh about things, simple things that makes me happy, people, places, things...just things.
I thank you Lord for always being there for me. I got this spirit of happiness and courage to face a new chapter in my life...all because of You.
My place is right where You are, just with You.

Someday I may meet the right one or maybe I already did, but for now, I am happy with how things are going.. the time for my family and friends, the time for me and most especially for Him.

Right here, right now...

Just starting everything really slow..this time, I am sure of what I should have done a long time ago. And indeed I am going to do this. Get what's mine, live my life and worry about no one else but me. Selfish? maybe. But then again, I am sure that when it's with me, it will never be broken.

God loves me and has always given me the answer I was looking for, I just choose not to look even when it is already right in front of me. Thank you Lord. At least I know now what I have to do.

This is it...moving along...

I finally got the answer that I was looking for. At first I wasn't sure that it was the one I was looking for, it was something not I am waiting. But it all made sense, that this is it. "Denz, you gotta let go now".

I was on the edge of a thread, hanging on it as if I was holding on to my own dear life. How should I hold on? What should I do to keep me from clinging to my life. What am I supposed to do this time now that I know the answer.

Move along..live and let live. I am finally breathing the air that I want to breathe, the song I want to sing, the water I want to quench my thirst for love and for happiness. Finally, it's here.

To you..well, it's your lost. Good Bye.

Bruises - Chairlift

Bruises lyrics by Chairlift

I tried to do handstands for you
I tried to do headstands for you
Everytime I fell on you, yeah, everytime I fell
I tried to do handstands for you
But everytime I fell for you
I'm permanently black and blue, permanently blue for you.

I tried to do handstands for you
I tried to do handstands for you
Everytime I fell on you, yeah, everytime I fell
I tried to do handstands for you but everytime I fell for you
I'm permanently black and blue, permanently blue for you-ooh-ooh-ooh

For you-ooh-ooh-ooh
So black and blue-ooh-ooh-ooh
For you-ooh-ooh-ooh.

I grabbed some frozen strawberries so I could ice your bruising knees
But frozen things they all unfreeze and now I taste like....
All those frozen strawberries I used to chill your bruising knees,
Hot July ain't good to me
I'm pink and black and blue for you.

I got bruises on my knees for you
And grass stains on my knees for you
Got holes in my new jeans for you
Got pink and black and blue

Got bruises on my knees for you
And grass stains on my knees for you
Got holes in my new jeans for you
Got pink and black and blue for you-ooh-ooh-ooh

For you-ooh-ooh-ooh
So black and blue-ooh-ooh-ooh
For you-ooh-ooh-ooh

Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo
Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo
Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo
Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo
Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo
Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo
Do-doo-do-do-do-do-doo

What's the use?

I don't know. Why bother? Why even try and think about it? I don't really know. Do I really care? Do I even give a damn about it? No.
What do you think? It doesn't matter what you think. Coz I don't want to hear it.
You care? You really do? Since when? So what now?
I don't even want to ask what you plan to do or if you even have plans at all. I don't want to think about this, about you. I am tired, just tired.

JUST LET ME BE. LIVE YOUR LIFE, I WILL LIVE MINE.

What makes life worth living...

Just a thought I had today. What really makes my life worth living. There was this time when I was really really lost, I do know what I did and it's just what is gonna happen that is really bothering me a lot. I have been asking myself, why do I have to go on? It is really hard to understand the meaning of life when you have been living for someone, someone you love, someone you wish to spend the rest of your life with..and then by destiny, it's gone... so what is going to make my life worth living now?
I have been enjoying this single life for quite some time now. And I intend to be in this situation for a very long time, I mean, what do I need? all I need is Him to live. But I would also like to have my love with me to live each moment for the rest of my remaining days... God, how I wish that the sadness deep within me will finally end.

January 20, 2010

My star for today:

It's a wistful, romantic kind of day, which is right up your alley. You can thank the stars for these wonderful feelings -- they're currently stirring up all kind of lovely trouble among your long-distance friends and lovers. So if you don't get a call from the person you've been thinking about for days now, you'll probably be moved to make one yourself. Why wait any longer? Pick up the phone.

"I just called..to say..I love you.."

It's just one of those Sundays

What a Sunday it is... I received a message from someone.. well, it wasn't nice. It was like I am back on this 'thing' again. I am moving on. I have to because it has eaten me alive and now that I am back on my feet, I just don't wanna go back there anymore.

For you, if you can't show respect for me, at least be a human being. You don't even have the right to talk to me that way. I don't know you anymore. Whoever you are, leave me alone. You have done too much damage to me.

Wherever you are (by Southborder)

I love to see the ocean's beauty
And the moon that shines above
Alone in the sand lookin at the stars
Wishing someday I would find true love

Wouldn't be nice to see the morning
With the one you love the most
Wouldn't be nice to say goodnight
To the one you hold so close
To your heart, to your heart...

The wind that blows the dove
Is the wind that blows my love
Hoping to find its way to you
Wherever you are

I love to sit in fields of green
Looking deeply thru the sky
Watching birds as they flap by
Hoping someday faith will bring me true love

Wouldn't be nice to hold someone
So dear, n near your heart
Wouldn't be nice to hear those words
I love you, from the one
That you love, that you love

The wind that blows the dove
Is the wind that blows my love
Hoping to find its way to you
Wherever you are

The wind that blows the dove
Is the wind that blows my love
Hoping to find its way to you
Wherever you are

I love to see myself one day
In the arms of someone
Who will share her life with me
Selflessly, someday you will find your way,
To me . . .

The wind that blows the dove
Is the wind that blows my love
Hoping to find its way to you
Wherever you are

The wind that blows the dove
Is the wind that blows my love
Hoping to find its way to you
Wherever you are, Wherever you are

For you my love, my heart..

Your smile is my happiness,
you presence is my existence
and your love is my life.
Loving you is the life I chose to have..
..Losing you is the pain I will embrace for eternity.

January 14, 2010

My Star today..

"With planetary activity at a bare minimum today, your ambition has some room to soar today, Leo. You could be feeling like you're on top of the world, and be setting your sights even higher, yet be perfectly aligned with the ideal of working for the common good. The main problem today is the same thing that is your advantage: this feeling of aspiration and optimism could cause you to take on more responsibility than you can deal with. As long as you remain realistic about your own abilities, you should have an enjoyable day."

I just hope that whatever responsibility I will deal with..God will always be there to guide me to the right path. Amen.

January 13, 2010

My Star says "The most important thing to remember about this Saturn transit, Leo, is that the actions you take and even more importantly the words you speak will have effects that last for a long time. Saturn, in your solar chart is in both a sign and a house where it is very comfortable. Over the quarter of a decade that Saturn remains there, you may find yourself networking with (or thrown into the neighborhood of) people who are well established, and very practical. You won't find this time dry or dull, because many goals will be accomplished with their support."

I am ready to meet them all. :) God is really GOOD.

January 12, 2010

My star says,

"Today almost seems like the completion of a process that began yesterday, Leo. The intuition is still strong, but with more of an emphasis on experimentation and trying to get measurable or practical results. You may get caught up in something with your partner, where one of you expects special treatment in some way. If you are looking for a partner, this is a perfect day to follow flashes of insight as to your next step in winning them over. Today really can be a winning day, but best of all, it can be quite a bit of fun."

Keep the faith alive and have a lot more of patience..

something to think about today..01-12-2010

"You know how sometimes it seems that life is just throwing you one curved ball after another? Well, guess what, - you have a great way to respond! - you can use every opportunity, every single one, to be happy. Don't just take a shower - feel into and receive pleasure from the water on your skin. Don't just walk on the street - enjoy the fragrances of the trees and the flowers on your way. Don't just drive your car - sing karaoke to your favorite radio station."

-Patience.. we will get there...

Stupidity

“I don't mind you thinking I'm stupid, but don't talk to me like I'm stupid”



“Everyone has a right to be stupid; some people just abuse the privilege.”
---not anymore. Maybe I am stupid to actually let you run through my life but now that I got this back. I am thinking more than twice.

January 11, 2010

My star says,

"Today is lucky for you, Leo. It seems like your intuition or hunches about the near future are correct, and today you can take advantage of these intuitions to solve problems or reevaluate your long-range plans. You could discover something that was supposed to be a secret, surprising others as well as yourself. At the same time, you need to avoid getting involved in the lives of others unless you are asked to by them. Your perceptiveness is strong enough today that poking around in others' business could feel, to them, like an invasion of privacy."

I know God will lead me to the right way. I just need to pray and have more patience. I will get there. I know I will and I feel it in my heart that I will get there. thank You God. Amen.

The Best Days of my Life

It has never been easy being away from you.
Got used to the feeling of being loved by you.
Now I am here alone, got nowhere to go.
Got no time to spend with you and so..
I am just fixing my own interesting life,
the way He wants us with a purpose driven life.
Living with God and His teachings and His words.
Breathing the air of this ever lonely world.
By every chance that I can make a wish.
to everything that may help me with this..
I wish for you to be blessed and all happiness.
That I once have shared with but made a mess.
I have nothing to offer but my undying heart.
For my love was always with you even when we part.
Living with your love has been the best days of my life.

Way back into LOVE

Just caught my senses with this song while I was watching the movie "Music and Lyrics"..

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh